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DOMINO EFFECT

what if the acceptance makes us settle for less?




We are all so damaged that being okay is a luxury. When someone else rants about an assignment, it's almost a ritual to magnify and talk about our own problems as well. No, I'm not talking about 'listening' or 'not being competitive in sharing your problems when someone shares theirs.' I am talking about "trauma and sadness being the constant and comfortable state of my generation" 

When walking up for Fajr or not sleeping after fajr or sleeping at time or working out subha subha or going for a walk in the evening or spending time with/cooking for your family is considered an exception when it should be and is a normal, common thing. It's almost like wearing a jacket in summer or idk any other odd thing you can think of.

You know when I miss fajr and a friend tells me that she slept at 2am and woke up 2 minutes before class and missed breakfast,, I don't see and recognize the problem, I fail to see what is wrong because it is so common because it is everywhere.

I saw this post about values affirmation the other day and idk how it links to this but I do think acceptance does make us stop from trying, trying for that extra push up, that extra effort because we settle for less and because it is happening all around us.

I felt a little insensitive and cold when this thought crossed my mind but maybe, just maybe we really need to call out each other for our laziness and stop blaming our unproductivity on a pandemic?

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