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COMPROMISES

Not all of us get a lot of chances with life. Those who do get a few opportunities often take them for granted or are just simply ungrateful. what I mean is that, at the end of the day, we are all flawed.
We think we got the worse but in reality, we all have got something which others desperately want or it might be all they need. Your blessings are their lackings and vice versa.

A lot of us understand this, I do too. Some of us accept it as well.
What we don't know is how to live with this and not let it affect our lives, our happiness,
I don't know either.

You need to make peace with the fact that there will ALWAYS be people who'd seem to have a better life than you, more peace, more of whatever you find attractive in life.

And you also need to understand that people think the same way about you.

You exist to someone you didn't even notice, they want to see you again, you were the best thing that happened to them that day, you were the reason they had a good day, they adore you. Some of them adore your life, they want to be in your place.

I don't know how to be more grateful about the things I have or make peace with the gospel that not everyone gets everything they want and that this worldly life is not meant to be fair but I think I can try to be okay with it by telling myself that I am not alone in this and that there are people out there who'd love to swap their life with me and that one day I will be at peace with whatever comes in my share....maybe...one day...



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