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CAMPO

Of all the people in the world, I thought you'd be different but you see that's where I lost it. almost all of us get deceived by thinking about someone as a different person than the average human but eventually, this world is probably nothing but monotony, and even though everyone is striving to prove that they are different, at the end of the day they are not. we are all the same. we are all capable of hurting each other.






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