patronus

I fear attachments, anything that makes me weak or vulnerable. I’m too afraid to fall in love because I think when you fall in love with someone, you make room in yourself to be filled by their pieces, their habits and their existence and when they leave, you can do nothing but stare into the voids and think about the old times when you were so strong because your happiness wasn’t dependent on someone’s presence. You were enough for yourself back then. Then sometimes I think love gives you all the power that you lacked before. Your dependency on another human makes you stronger, a little more humane than before and a little kinder. I don’t know the answers for this conflict but I know I’m too weak to confess and I will look for excuses forever.

The sky reminds me of everything that is far away from me. The people, the places and the moments I yearn for. But then the sky is the only connection between us too. Common for us all. Guarding us from above and looking after us. Combining the past, present and the future. All in one place. We don’t remember the moment we fall in love. It’s a process. Most of us don’t know when it started. I don’t think anyone can pinpoint the exact time or day and say ‘that’s when I fell in love’ we often don’t even notice the person the first time we see them and I hate the fact that I starting writing about love while I was writing about the sky. But that’s how love works. It makes room for itself no matter what. It connects everything. Combines the impossible for us. All in one place. Just like the vast blue sky. How else do you think people of different ages and completely different mindsets relate to Faiz’s poems? What other justification can you give for the fact that almost all of us...

I've been taking a lot of pictures of the sky lately and it hasn't been like that before. I don't write and it hasn't been like this before either.